I think I’m onto something good…

Guys guess what… I’M BACK. And I’m here for good, I swear. My last post was June 2014???? Yep, a lot has gone down since then. The biggest thing? I had another baby!!! WHOA I can’t believe it’s been that long. The even crazier part?? That new baby is about to turn 1. Clearly, I’ve been away too long. But yes, my sweet baby boy Tripp Reid was born last February and has become such a bubbly and precious addition to our family. Tenley Jane (now almost 4!) is the SWEETEST big sister. Watching them together makes my heart melt into a puddle.

I’m on a new venture, guys. Starting next Monday, I’m officially kicking off my very first round ever of the 21 Day Fix. Has anyone reading this done it before? If so, please please give me your tips and pointers!

I’ve been working with a nutritionist the last several months and can tell you that I’m feeling better than I have in years already. My skin looks better than it ever has and I notice a total difference in my energy. I have a personal goal to incorporate vegetables into every single meal and its working wonders for me. I’ve kept up with working out consistently and am seeing some good changes in my body. BUT, it’s time to up the ante. It’s time to buckle the heck down on my nutrition cleaning it up with these final tweaks. Super charge my workouts. So, bring on this new challenge!

My intent is to blog my way through this. If nothing else, it adds a layer of accountability for me and it will give me something great to look back on. I cannot wait to re-read this 3 ½ weeks from now and be so grateful I put so much work into myself. As any mommy can relate, I put everything I have into my family. I dote on my husband and our two children and I’m happy to do so. In order to take the best care of them, though, I have got to take the very best care of myself. So, here we go!

And by the way… what have you been up to this last year and a half?

On my drive into work this morning, I

On my drive into work this morning, I hit some pretty terrible traffic (there’s a whole story there…. Long story short: fuel tanker exploded right before morning commute in the middle of the beltway near the city yesterday… it’s turned traffic into a disaster and isn’t expected to be fixed for months!). Anyway, it turned out to be a blessing today because I got to catch Dr. Jenn Berman’s segment on Cosmo Radio. I had downloaded her app a few months ago (No More Diets- it’s a MUST READ). I needed the reminder, though, that listening to my body is the most important and necessary thing for me to do for myself. It also gave me a chance to reflect on just how much self-deprecating self-talk that I really do. It’s a lot! 

So, here’s my focus today. I’m going to recommit to the blend of the No More Diets methodology and my tips and tricks from my TIU lifestyle and start really taking care of my body and self. I’m going to write out some examples of the main ways I find myself diving into negative self-talk and I will commit to ways to turn this around. I know I beat up on myself with this negative self-talk every day… how sad is that! I realize how I spend so much time supporting and building up my family and friends but only ever tear myself apart. I realized that (being the visual person I am), I need to actually see examples of how I do this to myself and how I can combat that. 

You know what? I know for a fact I’m NOT the only person that does this to myself. I hope that I can encourage even one person to think through their own list and figure out their own ways to combat the self-deprecating and self-esteem diminishing thoughts. 

  1. Pictures. Immediately, I focus in on all of the physical features about myself that I hate. I pick myself apart! It’s so sad that I treat myself that way. 

So, I am challenging myself to find 3 things that I love about myself in each photo that I see of myself. No more focusing on negatives!! 

  1. Conversations. I automatically replay them in my head to find every flaw. Even further, I will remind myself of every flaw literally forever. 

Next time I realize I’m doing this, I commit to finding 2-3 examples of how I executed well in that conversation. I will find points to focus on about how I handled myself well.

 

  1. Comparing myself to others. I realize this is pretty common, but that’s no excuse (for me or for you!!).

 

I am committing to recognizing and respecting how we are all different from each other and how no one is any better than anyone else. Just different!

 

  1. I literally convince myself that others are focusing on my every single flaw when I’m talking to them. I’m just certain they are zeroing in on everything wrong!

 

Why?? As I sit here and think about it, I’m realizing that the other person is likely doing the exact same thing about themselves. We are all self-conscious about things. I’m going to remind myself that rather than them focusing on any “flaws”, they just might be focusing on how great they think I am or focusing in on a characteristic I have that maybe they wish they could see in themselves as well.

 

  1. I’m always telling myself that whomever I am talking to or in a room with his much smarter than I am, they know more about whatever we are talking about or doing, etc.

 

No. I am an expert at what I do. I know the projects I am working on and I have my own ideas. Instead of feeling like others will have  better ideas than me, I will remember that they just have a different perspective and they are reflecting on ideas and concepts from their own experience. It makes no ones ideas or thought processes any better than another.

 

  1. When I’m given feedback, I get super defensive and take it soooo personally. I tend to separate myself from people because I feel in adequate! That’s really sad, right?

 

I need to take a step back. When I feel that way, I need to table the discussion for a minute if that’s what it comes down to… but I will work on realizing that the feedback is intended to be constructive and that it is not a reflection on me as a person. I will focus on my confidence and feeling assured in my decisions and myself.

 

  1. I literally never make decisions on where to eat, what time to leave, what to do, etc. I’m too afraid it’s not what the other person wants to do!

 

I will remember this…. Whenever someone makes a decision on what to do, etc., I always go along with it. Even if it’s not what I really wanted to do, I find a way to make it work for me. They can do that too!!! If my decision isn’t want they necessarily wanted to do, that person can find a way to make it work for them. Or worst case? They will make an alternative suggestion and we can go from there.

 

  1. I literally hide behind my hands when I talk to others and I show my nervousness.

 

Like a true Tone It Up girl, I will focus on improving my posture to exude confidence!

 

 

 

 

 

Thanks for letting me vet this out! Xo

For the sake of full accountability…

Alright, here I am. I’m taking charge of the fact that I have spiraled a bit out of control in the past several months. Last October, I was 8 pounds lighter than I am right now (still 12 pounds above my goal). I slipped heavily into a sugar binge starting with Halloween and haven’t regained control of my portions or diet since. I’m ashamed to admit it, but I have to take ownership of what’s going on before I can actually move forward. 

I’ve been working out, so I haven’t completely lost myself. However, I have more than eaten myself right out of my workouts by consuming far too many calories. My portion control is way off and I’ve been eating long after I’m satisfied. In fact, I continue eating long after I’m full. I talk myself into continuing eating after I’m full because “it’s so good” or “who knows when I will eat this again”…. Except, I always do! I need to stop. 

So, here I am starting out all over again. I’m not going to dwell on the past and instead, I’m really going to focus hard on each and every meal as they come up. I need to get this weight off in order to feel good about myself and confident again.

For that reason, I will get back into the practice of blogging my progress. Here we go :) 

What tips do you have to curb overeating? 

My official unofficial observation on how diet impacts moods

I’ve been really interested lately in learning more about how eating different foods and maintaining different diets actually impacts our moods. It’s been quite surprising to me, honestly, how little literature there seems to be available on the topic. I guess I am searching for something concrete that will tell me, “If you binge on chocolate all day and eat pizza for dinner, you are going to be moody and tired”. Though I realize the outcome of poor eating habits seems fairly straight forward, I am really seeking something concrete.

I’ll use this opportunity to ask for your help… if you’ve come across any articles or literature that explains this, please do pass it along to me!

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In the meantime, I will explain what I’m quickly realizing for myself. My eating habits have been nothing short of terrible for a while. I mentioned this in my “Holy Hiatus” post from last week. I’ve been eating quite a bit of sugar…. ok… a TON of sugar. WAY WAY WAY more than a person should actually consider consuming and I’ve been eating sugar like this basically since Halloween. I’ve had a week here or there where I have behaved myself, but I’ve been pretty addicted. Which, by the way, I have found to be a real thing. 

I’ve also somehow managed to allow such junk as Ramen Noodles (really??), canned soup, and Italian Hoagies to become fairly regular parts of my diet. Hey, they all taste good. Add in the miniature Hershey bars and my taste buds have been gloriously happy for months. The rest of me, though? I feel sluggish. I feel moody. I feel incredibly self conscious. To be clear, when I say I’m tired, I don’t mean “oh man, it’s Monday…. sure wish it was Friday”… I mean “I slept 8 hours last night and I still feel like I’m fighting to keep my eyes open” or “I seriously just want to lay down”. Our bodies are not meant to feel this way!

Let’s explore the self consciousness and moodiness for a moment. I’m a naturally really happy, upbeat and optimistic person. People have commented on that to me for all of my life. I love that about myself! Lately, though, I’ve been irritable and quick to take offense. I’ve let really little things impact my mood in big ways. I feel super crappy about my self-image. This isn’t me! Where did this come from? I am certain it’s coming from my diet.

It all changes here. I’ve observed this about myself. I’m processing it as I write. I’m so ready to get myself back! My energy and my good moods, my self confidence. I’m ready! 

Holy Hiatus!

Wow. It’s been 6 months since I’ve posted anything. I was horrified when I saw the date of my last post.

Quick catch up: We finally sold the house that we had tried to sell for 2 years (!!!), bought our dream home in a beautiful quiet town, and our daughter turns 2 in a month. That’s the big exciting stuff…. the less exciting stuff, though, is that since Halloween, I’ve been on a total sugar binge. I can’t stop myself!!

I’ve gained a little weight back, but amazingly enough haven’t gained a ton despite my very poor diet. I’ve switched from working out in the mornings to working out during my lunch break since I no longer live close enough to a gym work get their in the AM. BUT, I’m still working out… so I have to pat myself on the back in that regard. 

What I NEED to do is this…. I need to get back to a place where food = fuel. Where taking care of my body is my focus. Where I’m not slowly killing myself with all of the sugar and processed junk that I’ve been eating the last several months.

So where I begin? I’m pretty far off of the healthy path I was on when I last wrote. It’s amazing how much I could have diverted from that path in a few short months. BUT, each moment that I face is a new moment and a fresh start. 

As I take the last sip of the Shamrock Shake I decided to binge on today…. I’m focusing on the next moment ahead of me. An opportunity to turn this day (and moreso, this life!) around. What’s your advice? I’ll take all of the tips you’ve got…

Lifting Heavy… How it’s going for me!

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Woot woot! Almost through my 2nd week of Stronglifts 5×5 and I’m really loving it. I feel strong and I’m literally watching myself get stronger each day (already!). 

I was completely terrified of walking over to the weights section of the gym when I started this last week. I was intimidated, felt so out of place and couldn’t imagine how I would make it through a workout without being laughed at. I pushed through, though, and I’m so glad that I did.

Each morning after a lift sesh, I am sore in all of the right places. I deadlifted 100 lbs today…. while I realize that’s nothing for a lot of people, it’s a heck of a lot to me. To put it into perspective, I was using 9 lb weights when I was doing deadlifts 2 weeks ago. 

I’ve been doing short runs on my lifting days and then longer runs on rest days. I do enjoy running and I’m really seeing tremendous improvement in my runs- particularly with my stamina. I ran farther yesterday than I have in years!

2 weeks in and I’m already thrilled. I cannot wait to continue tracking my progress and see where I am in a few more weeks🙂

xoxo,

M

A new venture… lifting heavy!

So I’ve been working out pretty consistently for about 6 years now and I have to say, I’ve learned more this past 7 months than I have in my life. Since February, I’ve been dedicated to the Tone It Up plan and I learned what it means to have a loyal support group. My TIU sisters have been amazing and have encouraged, motivated and cheered me on through a lot. 

I love the Tone It Up workouts! They are fun, get you moving and burn a ton of calories. I have been ready for something different, though to sprinkle in among these workouts. Something to enhance this already great program. I researched my heart out… which is how I always approach things. It’s just in my nature! I checked out T25, Insanity, P90X, and Stronglifts 5×5. I finally landed on Stronglifts as my decision.

Basically, it’s a program that builds your strength by lifting heavy. Today was Day 1 for me.. I challenged myself and I couldn’t be more proud. 

My alarm went off at 4:42 this morning… that’s typical. However, I was totally worried about how self conscious I was going to feel walking over to the barbell section. Anyone who goes to Gold’s Gym knows it… some of the strongest athletes train there! There are some seriously strong men and women, even in the mornings! But, I pushed myself to do it because I know that transforming my body is more important to me than what anyone there thinks. Beyond that, I reminded myself that they all had a 1st day of weight lifting too. So over I went! 

As I had expected, there were people squatting more than my body weight and here I was picking up the 45 lb bar…. The whole workout was decently challenging, but I am admittedly a bit nervous about adding weight. Will I be able to do it? Surely I will… I put my fears aside this morning, I can certainly do it again when it’s time to increase the weight.

I can’t wait to watch my strength grow. It will be fun to look back on my first day and remember how much courage it took to start out on this venture! 

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